back in my hostess dress again!
time, I’m serving up mimosas and lattes to celebrate my guest of honor, Chris
Carter from The Mom Café. I really can’t
gush enough about Chris. She’s a new
friend who feels like an old friend, because she’s just that wonderful. She’s
warm, wise, inspirational, funny, and her writing is full of gratitude, encouragement
and reflects her very strong faith. Once you have read her post here, I encourage
you to visit The Mom Café to read some more of her amazing material.
love the topic Chris has chosen for today, because as a fellow blogger, I can
100% relate. I bet you will as well.
I have slowly slipped into
two worlds. I didn’t see it coming, nor
did I realize the depth I would go when I started blogging. Over two years ago, I started writing in hope
of reaching out and encourage other women through my words. I dreamed of having an impact on others. Little did I know that in this endeavor, I
would create deep and connecting relationships that often consume my days and
nights and thoughts and emotions.
I have realized that this
blogging gig is more than a gig. It’s a
world of souls that have captivated my heart.
Friends I often spend time thinking about, praying for and laughing with
through each day that I spend glued to my laptop. I have always had a life full of glorious
friends, and for that I am blessed. I
never knew that the depths of the bonds I would create online, would reap the
joy and fulfillment that it does. When I
can’t get to posts, I feel urgency and need to read about the life of any of
these cherished friends I follow. I find
myself spending more time connecting with my dear cyber friends than I do with
my real life friends… and I am amazed that sitting at my table alone for hours
enriches my soul. But the painful truth
is that it pulls me away from my real life friends and for this, I am
remorseful. I constantly struggle to
find balance, and I almost always fail.
I wonder if the pull of my
on line community that often drags me away from my real life friends, is a good
thing or not. I often neglect the needs
or opportunities to see and connect with so many in my real life circles of
loved ones, for the sake of “blog work”.
I spend hours reading and relating…
to words and people that I have never met. And yet, more often than not… those are the
people I find myself thinking about, praying for or even laughing about a
memorable story they shared. It is such
a wonderful blessing that surfaced through my days of reaching out to find
followers and I realize this isn’t just about the “business”… it’s truly about
the people. The amazing and inspiring
souls I have discovered in this incredible adventure of writing and finding
purpose in it.
I struggle with this new
world I am deeply embedded in, for as I step away and spend time with my real
life friends, I am painfully aware of my neglect. My time is limited, and what I do with that
time reflects my heart and my passion. I
can never replace the rich and enormous love I have for my real life
friends. They are in my every day and I
can hug them and have real life experiences with them unlike my blogging
friends. I have always cherished the
incredible people that have fallen into my arms through the twists and turns of
my life journey. And yet, as close as I
am to many… they never truly understand my ‘other world’ in the great
blogosphere. How could they?
It is a separate world.
I didn’t expect this at
all. My real life friends know about my
blog and of course support me and love that I am pursuing my passion. They will listen to my updates with sweet
naive ears, but they don’t know enough to really understand it. When “catching up” with friends, I find
myself talking more about my blog and friendships in my other world than the
one I live in. And that oftentimes
disconnects our bond, because it is foreign to them. They know “Chrissy” in real life… and it
seems, that’s truly all they want.
Two worlds. One me.
I didn’t know it was going to be this way.
I am the same person in
both, but each world has different people.
I am just learning how to adjust accordingly. I am still attempting to juggle the two, and
I have learned that the two just simply don’t blend together well. Perhaps it’s supposed to be this way…
There are a few real life
friends that stop by and read and comment on my posts. But what I have realized is that they get me
in real life, so they don’t look for me on line. They might support my work and wish me the
best… but their world is with me.
That is enough for them. And yet,
I often neglect these precious relationships to further those in my ‘other
world’. It’s a constant struggle and I
am conflicted in my choices every day.
How can I keep up with both worlds?
My efforts are desperate and I constantly try to maintain both. It’s so very difficult.
This has been a learning
experience for me. And as I try to
accept the reality of these two worlds and balance it on a fine and delicate
line, I am cautiously aware that the boundaries are set.
So I go on, and I write
and I reply and I share and I laugh and I pray and I cry and I bond.
I hug and I laugh and I
talk and I pray and I help and I share and I text and I play.
Two worlds. Same me. Different friends.
And although it is what it
is… I know that if I could somehow blend
the two, they would create one perfect world.
My name is Chris Carter and I am a SAHM of two pretty amazing grade school kids. I have been writing at TheMomCafe.com for over two years. I started my blog in hopes to encourage mothers through my writing with humor, faith and inspiration. Come join me!